Journaling

September 24, 2008

This is the first entry in my new journal. I have had trouble getting to this point. I am a bit of a perfectionist when it come to putting anything down on paper (writing and drawing mostly) so I have a love/hate relationship with writing. Just getting started has been a big step for me. I recognize how beneficial a journal could be for me, there’s no shortage of ideas I’ve contemplated working through on paper, and I was kind of eager when the whole journaling thing started at Kung Fu. Yet I haven’t started till now and that unsettles me. I don’t really know why it took me so long. I think it might just be a combination of procrastination, fear and settling for keeping thoughts in my head.

I talked to Master Brinker about this today (among other things) and confessed that I felt a bit ashamed I hadn’t been Journaling. It felt good to get it off my chest. So here I am and this is the start of it all.

One of the other things I talked to Master Brinker today was the Ultimate Black Belt Test. I feel like I’ve been in a slump with my training the past few months. I am not in the physical shape I want to be and my forms/techniques feel rusty. I also hit an all time motivational low. So with my personal training crisis going on I feel that the UBBT is a perfect way to increase my drive. It will be a fantastic motivator to whip myself into shape and take my training up a notch. I told Master Brinker to sign me up.

I’m nervous about committing to a 13 month hardcore test but I may not get a chance to do something like this again and now is the best time.