Lazy Sunday

Sundays are my days of rest, my mini vacations each week where I set aside what business I can and dedicate the day to relaxing and recharging my batteries. I wouldn’t have it any other way, I love having a day dedicated to doing whatever I bloody well feel like doing. Sundays are almost always the days where I have the most free time available but I’m probably less productive, speaking in the sense of “forward progress” type activities, on Sundays than any other day of the week and I don’t feel even a bit guilty about it. So I often spend a lot of time on Sunday’s reading, playing games, watching movies or hanging out with friends.

I’ve noticed that if I spend too much time reading or playing games I reach a strange state of mind. I kind of get sucked into whatever I’ve been doing and confuse it with reality. I’m not speaking psychosis style, “I CAN’T TELL WHATS REAL OR NOT” state but I become withdrawn and reflective with my brain chugging away over this or that, mostly over fluff that has no bearing on anything I’m doing, and kind of zone out and lose awareness of the present. When I’m in this mood I feel half awake and unmotivated to do much but sit around, it takes a healthy dose of exposure to other people to snap me out of it. To others I appear unhappy and quiet. While certainly quieter on Sundays I’m certainly not unhappy, I’m usually just in a hazy state of contentment and indifference so if you see me and want to wake me up just be friendly and boisterous.

I bring this up because I had a very laid back day at work today and read for about four hours. Now all I can think about is stowing away on trains, the importance of self conduct and beautiful, wealthy merchant’s daughters (especially the later). In short, I’m a bit spaced. I think this takes away from the rest of my day so I’m beginning to think I should try to avoid putting myself in this state. Strategy video games are the worst for this, a couple hours of Empire: Total War later and all day, no matter what I’m doing, I’m constantly planning the next conquest or expansion of my Swedish empire while maintain a general instinct to distrust Russia. Everything in moderation eh?